On meeting Chuck Palahniuk.

I heart Chuck Palahniuk. Not as much as my sister, true, but still more than the average author.

This last Wednesday, my sister and I trekked out to San Francisco to see Chuck at a book signing. His new novel Snuff was released the week before, and we were waiting impatiently all week for the signing so that we could read the book.

To prepare myself, the first book I read after finals was Invisible Monsters, his third fiction novel and the only one I hadn’t read yet. This book was my reward; it had been sitting patiently on my bookshelf unread for over a month. When I wanted to pull down a book and read, I’d look at it and contemplate studying instead. Not that I studied—no, instead I just pulled down a romance novel from the crap collection1, and felt bad about reading such a bad book when there was other stuff to be done.

Back to Wednesday: K and I spent about two hours at the Warf—turns out we’re tired of being touristy in San Francisco—and then headed up to the Haights to pick up our copy of the books before the signing.

I then proceeded to read Snuff for the next two hours straight, and finished it about ten minutes before Chuck signed it for Josh. My sister had her copy of Snuff signed as a birthday present to a friend, and three of her other Chuck books signed for her.

I didn’t know what to expect for the reading. I usually only go to poetry readings; the only book reading I have been to was with multiple authors, and boring as hell.

First Chuck was interviewed by Rick Kleffel of The Agony Column—they recorded the talk and it is supposedly supposed to be up on the site. I can’t find it to save my life. However, there are a few videos taken by the bookstore editor up on his Youtube page (pretty much if it’s got Chuck’s name in it, it happened at the signing).

After the interview, instead of reading a section of the novel, Chuck went with a short story that he had written especially for the tour, called “Loser,” about a guy rushing Zeta Delt, and the pledge trip to be in the studio audience for The Price is Right.

Afterwards was audience Q+A, where I really wanted to ask him how he felt about becoming his own genre—query letters go out to agents and editors all the time with the phrase “in the style of Chuck Palahniuk”—when he had found it so hard to be published in the beginning, when the editors loved his stuff but didn’t know who the audience would be. But I didn’t get picked. Oh well.

There were also a few contests, mainly whoever blew up a blow-up doll the fastest received a copy of a recently published chapbook of Chuck’s short stories. At least, I think its Chuck’s… If not, I never caught the name of who’s it is. They did this a couple of times, so four people won books.

K got a blow-up doll and an autograph hound, both signed by Chuck, both important objects in Snuff. She was very excited.

Chuck is awesome to see in person, really funny, and really nice when signing a huge pile of books, even when the line snakes out the door.

And now I can’t wait for the movie of Choke to come out in the Fall. Based on K’s favorite book, it won an award at the Sundance Film Festival in January. I’m also waiting for my favorite book, Survivor, to finally be made into a movie. It was optioned before 9/11, but was shelved because the frame story involves the hijacking of an airplane.

  1. This is the collection of romances that ME was tossing because they are crap. I have them because I like to read crap so as to better recognize it. We do not believe that the romance genre is crap. Far from it.[back]

600+ words on not knowing what to write about.

I don’t know what to blog about.

Walking to my last final Friday morning with Mrs. Jesus and ME, we were discussing the things that we couldn’t wait to do now that we had all this free time, no classes to study for or things that had to get done. I don’t remember what they said—I was still cramming for our final and thus not listening to remember—but mine was blogging. I couldn’t wait to get back to blogging.

This semester has been very stressful for me. The problem with my stress, though, is that I don’t really notice it until it’s gone. Friday morning, standing in the shower and knowing I only had a paragraph and a half to finish my last paper and I was done with my portfolio, done with my Rhetoric class, and it was like I was washing away an accumulation of grime that I hadn’t even noticed. I felt cleaner coming out of that shower than I have this whole year—and it’s not like I don’t shower every day.

When I’m stressed, though, I lose interest in everything I do for fun. Blogging seems like a luxury I couldn’t afford, knitting a vague memory of something I used to enjoy. I haven’t read the books I wanted to because I felt guilty for reading something not assigned, so I read crap books that made me feel bad about reading them.

The end of the semester is like the light at the end of the tunnel. I suddenly want to start new knitting projects, read books that have been on the pile for months, have brilliant ideas for stories, and finally, reconnect with my blog.

Unfortunately, I don’t know what to blog about. Josh wrote a fantastic post the other day about who he wanted to be, what he wanted to do. He sent me a rough draft of the post for editing, and seeing his final, I am blown away. So much better than his first go round.

What made the difference? His personality showed through. He didn’t just tell me something, he gave me a story to illustrate his point. A personal story. Which makes sense, since Josh and I are personal bloggers.

It’s hard being a personal blogger some times. I mean, sure, it seems like it would be easy because you can write about whatever you want to. But at the same time, it’s hard, because it’s personal. This blog is all about me. It’s a reflection of what I think and believe and experience. And sometimes, blogging becomes hard because it seems like nothing good enough is going on to blog about.

After all, how many times can I write about breaking up with a long-term boyfriend (apparently not at all, because I’m not ready to rip that scab off), about being single and dating again, about finals and grades and classes and school?

Each time I sit down to blog, I want it to be something new. I want the act of writing to bring me a new truth, and for the audience, the act of reading to open them up to something they never thought about.

Lately, it feels like I’m regurgitating the same things over again. I haven’t hit onto anything profound—for me, at the very least—in a very long time. There have been very few moments in the last few months that I have thought, as Mrs. Jesus would say, “now that’s blogworthy.”

So this summer, I’m going to rethink what makes something blogworthy, come up with a blog-buster, plumb the depths of my life to find a truth that has been lurking around in the dark corners of my mind. And hopefully, pull out some entertaining writing to boot.

So, I don’t know what to blog about. But I’ve got all summer to find my groove again.

P.S.: If you’re looking for a blog editor, for either copy or content, I’m your girl. Going rate is $10 an hour, and a post this length would take me about 15 minutes for content, less for strict copy. For inquiries: lisa (at) unsympathetic (dot) net.

Dead Week.

This is the most stressful time of the semester. No, it’s not finals. I never stress about those. No, this is “dead week” when the professors are supposed to not test us. So, of course it’s the busiest week of the semester because everything is due.

Since I will have to write more than 10,000 words in new papers alone, never mind the ones that still need to be rewritten (oh, like the one that’s so bad it got no grade at all), there will be most likely no blogging.

But to tide you all over, I wrote a very bad poem about “dead week.” Just in case you were wondering what it is I have to do—and I admit, my list is pretty light. E’s been working non-stop for the last three weeks with no let up, and Ame hasn’t seen her boyfriend for more than 2–3 hours a week in awhile. As English majors, we’ve got it pretty easy. And no group projects, thank heaven.

So, I’m turning my radio up, tuning the world out, and going to give myself finger-cramps before the week is out.

Poem after the jump. I didn’t want to torture you with my bad poetry unneccessarily.

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A recap of an open mic night.

Tonight was Sigma Tau’s Open Mic night, and ME and I didn’t know it, but it was apparently our responsibility.

(Did I mention? New Vice President of Sigma Tau? And ME got President? Rocks to be us.)

We were not prepared to be in charge, but our last meeting of the semester was the day before, and the President’s folder was handed over, and there we were.

I ended up being emcee for the night, introducing people and such, and read my poem first, to kick off the night. I hate being first. And microphones. But it went well. There weren’t very many readers — I blame it completely on the lack of fliers announcing it — but I think there were about ten of us. And our advisor is good at filling time; he writes songs that the English majors love to hear. And the place was crowded — much more than attended last semester.

I really like open mic nights. I love hearing people read their stuff, and for some reason, I alway get a bajillion ideas. I always end up with notes scribbled all over whatever is available.

Tonight, I came home with ideas for three new poems, and finally figured out to illustrate an image that’s been stalling me on one I’ve been working on.

So next year, Open Mic nights are going to be my pet project. Better organized, better promoted, and an actual donation jar. I can’t wait.

But which poem should I write first? Things I Will Never Do for You or You Can Tell This is a Party Because We’ve Got Red Plastic Cups?

Who am I kidding? First up is on the list of things to be worked on is the one I talked about last month. I’ve finally got the image I was looking for, this one I can show to my parent’s when I’m done.

Oh, and two more weeks until the end of the semester. Can’t wait for that to be over too.

I crashed… But a few weeks too soon.

This last week has been the hardest week for me this semester. This year, actually.

And it’s not because I had a ton of work to do or fights with people. No, instead it’s because I’m a dumb ass and break things easily.

My harddrive crashed last Monday night. And by crashed, I mean the disk actually shattered. Trying to boot up, my computer sounded like it was playing plinko as the pieces moved around as it tried to spin.

So, no recovery possible. I’ve lost everything. All of my papers, all of my notes, all of my music. I had to skip class last Wednesday for an emergency trip down to Sacramento and the Apple store.

I’ve come to grips with losing everything. The most important things I was working on — a research paper and a poem — I had emailed rough drafts of to Josh, so I have those to work with. I’d have been so bitter if I had to start that poem over from scratch.

Things will be silent around here for just a little bit longer. I’m slowly piecing back together my computer and the things I need, and there are three weeks left in the semester with four papers that have to get written, along with a huge InDesign project and trying to piece back together my Sociology notes to study for the final.

I’ll miss you blog. Not as much as I miss my harddrive, but still.

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