I finally received a letter from Chico State. Not exactly the welcome packed I was expecting, nor is it encouraging in any way.

It’s a form letter, of course, and the main gist of it says, “we need the following documents or information to determine your eligibility for admission to CSU, Chico.” This is not at all what I was expecting to see in a letter. I do understand the request for my transcripts, because that’s essentially what it is. But, the phrasing leaves much to be desired.

After all, I’ve already announced that I’m going to Chico State. They can’t take that back from me now can they? The admissions officer I saw during “on the spot” admissions gave me a little certificate that said I was attending Chico State in fall of ‘07, dependent on whether or not I passed the math class I’m currently taking.

This letter implies that perhaps maybe they don’t want me after all.

I am deathly afraid of people looking at my transcripts. Sure, the one from SCC looks good. In the three semesters I’ve been there, I’ve gotten all A’s and one B in a non-transferable class. Unfortunately, my ARC transcript it atrocious. I think there’s only one A, a smattering of (most likely two) B’s, and a plethora of C’s. I really wasn’t into school back then.  Can you blame me? I was a Business major then.

The problem is that nearly all of my ARC classes are transferable, and that a lot of them are my general education credits, so I can’t drop them if I wanted to. It doesn’t help that every semester there, I had a withdraw or a failure for some class.

My ARC GPA is abysmally low. A 2.5 or some such nonsense. Perhaps lower. Because my combined GPA last semester (before the fall semester grades were given) was a 2.9. Seriously. A 4.0 year brought me up to a 2.9. That’s how bad it is.

So I’m terribly afraid that they’re going to look at the ARC transcript, look at the GPA, and say “hey, she’s totally not bright enough for us.” And then not let me in.

They can’t do that, if they’ve promised me a spot, have they? I’m just so paranoid about the whole thing.

Whatever happens, I’m still going to Chico in the fall, even if it means I’m only moving up there to go to community college while ME earns a BA for both of us.

–”Hum Hallelujah,” Infinity on High: Fall Out Boy